Revisiting a Post: September 17, 2015

Today I am grateful for this blog and how it has taught me to honor writing time regularly. And for all it has taught me about myself. Writing has a way of revealing us to ourselves. 

This is a post I wrote six years ago today, on September 17, 2015. It is titled: Understanding What I Am 

Here is a thought-provoking quote:

"If you begin to understand what you are without trying to change it, then what you are undergoes a transformation." 

(Jiddu Krishnamurti)

If you have read my blog for any amount of time, you know I appreciate words that help me reflect and encapsulate what gratitude practice does for me. This quote does that.

Gratitude practice has helped me see the good in myself and others much more readily. It helps me feel like I am enough, as is. The world around me is enough, as is. In this moment, in this day. 

Less time spent chasing the illusion of perfection and things outside of myself means more time exploring and accepting who I am. Change does indeed occur then. My energy becomes more about feeling worthy, living fully, and trying easier. It becomes less about holding back in unworthiness, stunting my own growth, and trying too hard.

Understanding who I am today starts with: I am a grateful person, comfortable in my own skin, knowing more peace than before, and looking forward to today's opportunities. 

I was just beginning my fifties at the time of this original post. I have done plenty of muddling around since then, but also know a level of emotional clarity and self-acceptance that I never did before. Try easier or try too hard and waste energy?  Chase illusions or explore myself as a writer? Which will it be? 

I have choices each day, and am learning to make the healthier ones more often. How about you?  What are your questions? Allow the answers to reveal themselves.