This quote below makes me smile, both on my face and in my heart. Years with no results? I can't say I have ever experienced that. Persistence and perseverance are results in and of themselves.
"Even if our efforts of attention seem for years to be producing no result,
one day a light that is in exact proportion to them will flood the soul."
I know discouragement. I know "why bother?" and "does it really matter?" But I also know flooding of the soul with such a deep sense of awakening, a deep sense of grace. My soul. The human soul.
If I hadn't gained a healthier perception of myself, if I hadn't known a little peace from my self-defeating thoughts, maybe I would have given up. But it didn't take long into my gratitude practice, which I began in earnest 20 years ago, for me to know it was making a difference.
I am not flooded with gratitude every day. Who is? But I know frequent and consistent positive upticks in my outlook on life when I persist in my gratitude practice. And by practice I mean awareness of the gifts in my life. Sometimes that translates into writing a thank you or giving a gift to someone, but day in and day out it is mostly about paying attention.
The light is brighter on some days, but it is always there.