Quiet Desperation
Today I am grateful for the morning quiet and coming daylight that help me start my day with peace.
I am also grateful for fewer times of quiet desperation in my own life.
I witnessed someone the other day showing a little desperation, or that is what it looked like to me. It wasn't an emergency, but you could hear it in the person's voice and body language. It had to do with money. My first thought went to someone that edgy needing money for an addiction.
My second thought was deep gratitude that I am no longer an active alcoholic. I had times of desperation when I made choices I am not proud of. I survived and continue to recover.
I am also grateful for fewer times of quiet desperation in my own life.
I witnessed someone the other day showing a little desperation, or that is what it looked like to me. It wasn't an emergency, but you could hear it in the person's voice and body language. It had to do with money. My first thought went to someone that edgy needing money for an addiction.
My second thought was deep gratitude that I am no longer an active alcoholic. I had times of desperation when I made choices I am not proud of. I survived and continue to recover.
Quiet desperation. We have all been there, in one way or another. Sometimes it is a short trip. Other times it is a long stay. What I have learned through regular gratitude practice is this: life fluctuates and flows, sometimes with joy, other times with pain, and often with some of each. When I tune in to what I already have, I do much better than when I pine away for what I don't have.
It is that simple. I try not to complicate it with too much thinking.
I will be taking a blog break for a few days.
Have a good rest of the week, a day at a time, a moment at a time.
I will be taking a blog break for a few days.
Have a good rest of the week, a day at a time, a moment at a time.
Like the quiet gratitude versus quiet (or not so quiet) desperation.
ReplyDeleteI have really come to like the word quiet. It slows me down, helps me pause. When I was quietly desperate, my mind was still racing and my heart was hurting. No peace in that. Thanks!
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